This year, January has been a vital yet strange month for me. I have always been aware that many others experience an aray of low moods in January due to the gloomy weather and the post Christmas sadness. Usually, I don’t succumb to the January hopelessness as in the past I have been over-ridden by coursework, shows/rehearsals and overall preparations for my exams. In case you were unaware (or in this case extremely confused) in June (2016) I left school after 2 years of GCSE’s and then 2 years of A-Levels; I worked extremely hard and eventually got awesome grades that I’m still very proud of. But amidst what felt like the most stressful time of my life, I swiftly avoided the boredom my life has now slowly become. I do have a part-time job, but its in retail and of course…nobody wants to shop in January, so recently I’ve had many days of essentially ‘bumming’ around.

However, I’m not taking all of my days off for granted as at times in December I was working 12 days in a row and all I wanted was a break to just sit down with a cup of tea and a book. I’m attempting to make the most of my time off by reading more, preparing for Norway and going out with my friends. It’s been a strange, but also extremely hard month for me; whenever I find myself without anything to do I tend to resolve to just watching movies or YouTube in bed for hours on end without realising I’ve wasted yet another unproductive day. Don’t get me wrong, we all need days off to relax, but not nearly every day off should be a chill day.

Like I have mentioned upon many occasions on this blog, I am what I would call an unconditional ‘dreamer’. My entire life I’ve been surrounded by people I idolise that push me to follow my dreams and ultimately become the best version of myself; this is of course something we should all aspire to be. But it’s important to not get too wrapped up in your dreams (something I am extremely guilty of). Although I have had a few down days where I feel extremely unproductive, I need to continue to remind myself that I have taken a few huge leaps to following my dreams this month and hope to continue to do so throughout 2017.

Someone close to me always reminds me that its not only important to have big dreams, but to also have small ones. It’s okay to have more than one dream; life is an infinite platform for creativity. Instead of small dreams, I have recently decided to address them more as ‘small goals’. Looking back upon January, I have now realised how many small things I have actually achieved and am beginning to feel so proud of myself for doing so. Just to mention a few: getting into a skincare routine, eating breakfast every day, drinking more water and reading more. The list could already goes on and on.

The point I’m trying to make is that although we are trained into merely seeing the big beautiful picture over-flowing with our tremendous dreams and adventures that are waiting to be grabbed by our greedy hands, its important to see the small picture too. I’ve discovered that the best way to do this is to instead set myself weekly goals, a simple one being: ‘Have breakfast every morning this week’ which I actually stuck to and still am now! The reasoning behind it was that I’d gotten into the bad habit of never eating breakfast and knew how important it was for me; its safe to say I am extremely pleased about achieving this one.

It’s important to steady yourself too, eventually I want to get back into exercising and healthy eating but am attempting to ease myself in by walking the dog and walking a little bit further to work. I am extremely excited for February and to already move forward from what did feel like a glum January! I have lots of exciting things planned but cannot believe one month of 2017 is already down! What exciting plans do you have for February? Pop it in the comments below, I love to hear what you guys are up to!

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